Mercy in Disguise


I mentioned in a recent blog that I struggle with a disability.  It’s a true statement.  I do struggle with that sometimes.

Another truth is that this disability that I have is a permanent part of me now.  Unless miraculous further healing comes, this is me now, and likely me until Heaven, when I believe I will be fully restored and freed from the limitations I experience here.

My heart is so lifted to God through music.  I’ve mentioned that before too. God must have put that music-heart in me as one of my love-languages, because nothing, NOTHING, touches my soul more than music. There are artists that simply lift my heart up and heavenward the moment they open their mouths.

Laura Story is one, Audrey Assad another,  Matt Maher a third, and then of course Kari Jobe…but there are dozens of others, and not just Christian artists.  David Wilcox, Michael Johnson, Liz Story, Diana Krall…aaah.

When I doubt the loving kindness of God, on a particularly hard day, I usually run to my journal, my bible and my earphones, and remind myself how good God is.  He always can be found.

Laura Story has a new release that nearly perfectly describes the blessing of my disability.  I keep listening to it because it’s just one of those lift my heart to God songs.  Makes me thankful.  Reminds me that God is good, even when circumstances are hard. Even  when  it is  hard.

Don’t misunderstand.  It IS hard.  But when I choose to focus on the blessing, my perspective shifts.

I look forward to the day when I am free from my body’s limitations.  I do. But for today, I choose joy.

Enjoy:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CSVqHcdhXQ

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we’d have faith to believe

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home,
It’s not our home

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

One thought on “Mercy in Disguise

  1. I song fills every part of my being. The depth of the words, her voice, the music, all flood my heart and soul. My spirit feels magical; the pain of sorrow is embraced.

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